So Ramdan Started .. And lots of drama happened and I was just shocked :) anyways i took out the diary that mum got for me and thought of writing my feelings and what happened and see how it goes so yeah .. Here i start :
25/8/2009
Dear Diary
This is my first entry ><
As i said today is Ramdan and im feeling very very bad for some reasons :( well i met this guy that special awesome .. unforgettable guy-friend ever (Even though i love him .. (L) anyways :P Lets not go there) Guess what happened? well the problem that happened , it was so stupid of me to trust that stranger but i did and well that guy is with 3abood (The AWESOME guy-friend i met) at school and he told me ; "How do you love abdulla :s seriously ! he talks to girls and doom yra8mhum and he is way crazy about them and i bet he's cheating on you" men kthr ma kint m3a9ba and sh** i was like "Abood :) Do you have a Girlfriend ? or do you talk to girls w chee? " , 7laelah he replied with " wth? No mawaz i dont ! :( " and i didn't trust him .. :( and now he told me his last words .. "Mawazii .. I Would NEVER harm you or love 7ad '3airch .. Cuz .. Your the one for me .. Your the one that i love Moaza :') and if you believe other people well go ahead , Bye " and he deleted me. I swear , Cross-My heart i kept crying like NON-STOP ! all i had in mind ' i lost my everything .. ' but all i could wish is for him to come back . i Effin' Love him seriously ...He was my life/heart/Roo7i/Eternity/Future and ugh EVERYTHING EVERYTHING !!
but now? i guess its good bye .. He was the only one i voice noted with on my blackberry and sent personal pictures of me to him :( *sigh* and i have this pic of him that he gave me, Yes! Im the luckiest girl to have it !! im so happy to have it so if he isnt online (i bet he blocked me or deleted me) i would look at his pic& talk to him and pretend he is beside me .. always and .. f o r e v e r
7beebe walla ... Anyways its 3:20 and i need to sleep , Done crying and now i have to force my self to sleep
.. i Dont know what will happen tomorrow .. Good night :)
Woke up at 5:35AM, Red light ylbag .. Who might sent a message at this time :S ... *picks up phone and checks..*
... OMGOMGOMGOMG!!! :O
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